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There's a toxic waste dump in the backyard of the house I was thinking of moving into. Now on to plan B....

Maggie sounded not herself last night. I hope she's okay.

I think Todd is getting scared of the relationship and is comming up with stupid rationalizations. He's also unhappy that I don't "open up" to him, which is true.
He said I'm not weird enought for him.

The wind blew my Lego Pirate Ship off the shelf and it smashed into a thousand pieces. It's a bitch to rebuild, it needed dusting anyway.

I'm not entirely sure why, but a day doesn't go by where I don't think about leaving Todd. I could be scared. I could be cold...

"You decided your own level of participation."
Where's that from?

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The toxic waste dump thing makes me think you're taking 'Zodiac' too seriously.
Or maybe nobody takes it as seriously as we should.

you should ask yourself a couple of things (about todd).. are you generally happier with him in your life? is this a direct consequence of him being in your life? if no, well there is a problem. now why do you think about leaving todd? do you think there is something better out there? you seemed ready to settle down and chill with him at first, so maybe after the hearts and stars phase, the reality of the relationship may be settling in. is there anything about him that bugs you or turns you off, you should look at that objectively. can you live with it? it will only get worse with time if you don't confront it. he should be asking himself the same question. the two of you sound great for each other, so by all means don't just toss the last few months away because of uncertainty. just talk about it (with him). it may suck at first, but you should feel better about things if you two are straight with each other.. or at least you should know where things stand and make better decisions based on that knowledge.

i wouldn't want toxic waste in my back yard either..

are you generally happier with him in your life?
Yes...
is this a direct consequence of him being in your life?
Yes...

now why do you think about leaving todd?
Fear.

just talk about it (with him).

I hate that part... I'm not good at talking.

it may suck at first, but you should feel better about things if you two are straight with each other.. or at least you should know where things stand and make better decisions based on that knowledge.

Thanks :)

now why do you think about leaving todd?
Fear.

what are you afraid of? being hurt? hurting him? the unknown? that is a hard question to answer. just talking to him (yeah i still think you two should talk) will help that fear, which is most likely lingering on both sides..

eye balls back.

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