wow and crying

the dead flag blues


"the car's on fire and there's no driver at the wheel
and the sewers are all muddied with a thousand lonely suicides
and a dark wind blows
the government is corrupt
and we're on so many drugs
with the radio on and the curtains drawn

we're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine
and the machine is bleeding to death

the sun has fallen down
and the billboards are all leering
and the flags are all dead at the top of their poles

it went like this:

the buildings tumbled in on themselves
mothers clutching babies picked through the rubble
and pulled out their hair

the skyline was beautiful on fire
all twisted metal stretching upwards
everything washed in a thin orange haze

i said: "kiss me, you're beautiful --
these are truly the last days"

you grabbed my hand and we fell into it like a daydream or a fever

we woke up one morning and fell a little further down --
for sure it's the valley of death

i open up my wallet and it's full of blood"

-GSYBE!


Meg Lee Chins band rules, they asked me to tape the concert for them and put me on the list. It was fun. Zanwe loves me, he got me a hoodey for my birthday.

Todd broke down at 3 am. We were talking about how horrible it is watching our addicted friends self-destruct and he said, "You probably feel that way about me..." He decided he needs to go to NA. I told him if he didn't get help and pull his life back together I'll leave. We cried together for hours and he doesn't know what to do.
Funny, I never thought our Fight Club life would actually include going to meetings....
All I can do is hold him.