Terror Camp; Body Horror

[threemeninaboat]

This weekend I am on the Zoom conference about tall ship polar exploration, Terror Camp. Terror Camp is by and for young homos and to quote the author of Madness at the End of the World, "I thought my audience was old beardy guys who like the Civil War, yet there's 400 of you here, my largest audience ever, who are...not that... Why do you like me?"

I did not pipe in with, "I have the landlocked blues and I need to know that being on a ship is miserable."

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When I had endometriosis surgery at 22 they gave me 1 year before I'd need surgery again. 2 if I took my meds. I got 21 years.

21 years.

The endometriosis is burrowing into my lower intestine.
I thought, Hm 21 years. Surely we have had some medical break throughs in treatment? Studies? Developments?
No.
Jack shit.

I looked at my collection of what sort of helped in the past:
Diet? Nope.
NSAIDs: Nope.
Gabapentin: Nope
Booze: Bingo


I had 3 drinks at the Gaybors Buc-ee's themed Christmas Party last night. I took 2nd in the costume contest. #1 had a texas flag bikini and stripped, she deserved it. I had a Buc-ee's onesie. We got LEGOs in the White Elephant. I ate lots of garbage. I slept well, not completely pain free, but better than I had in weeks.

I'm normally a 3 drinks a month person ish. So there's now booze with dinner. Tonight is Schilling Cider House Mango 9.1% We'll see how long it holds.
Next step is opiates and finding a surgeon.

Comments

[chasing_silver]

Yeah, it grinds my gears hardcore that there has been really nothing to help endo at all, in years and years of knowing about it. We get nothing, because uterus.

[elusis]

Yeah everybody's all worried about the uteri of young trans guys and nonbinary folks, but get a little older and they're all "just junk it!" The NYT's long-form article on how much confusion there even is around "what do they remove when they do a hysterectomy" was instructive for me, and I'm 51 and have a PhD and am a certified sex therapist.

[threemeninaboat]

Hysterectomy does not even stop endo.

[elusis]

So gruesome. I'm sorry.